by Emmanuel Barasa
With a few years that God has granted me I have come to learn a lot that which either I’m the one who sees it or I might have overlooked a few things. Everyone has questions that linger on their minds like; do you think I deserve this? Why do you think it had to happen to me, and why now? Do you think it affects others as how it affects me, if I had a chance to change the past, will it affect my present? Those are just but a few of the questions that come in one’s mind whenever we find it had to accept our current situation.
With what is happening in our country right now with high cost of living; we tend to make harsh decisions or lesser decisions depending on where we stand. Whenever I find it hard to place a meal on the table for my family or I can’t meet up the daily necessities as a man in the house there is where lots of questions pops up, no sleep and what happens next, i sit and start analyzing myself where I went wrong or what mistake I did along the line until I come to agreement with myself telling myself I have come from far and I have to do it smartly if I want to see different results. Being a man doesn’t a guarantee that there isn’t a time you feel low or vulnerable ; but we tend to keep striving because we don’t want to fail those who look up to us, you’ll not want to show them that you’re really trying just showing them a smile like things are going to be better. Sometimes we are out of options like what I’m I going to do…it is getting late and I am not sure whether I will manage to ensure that my family has something to eat day or the expenses that I was supposed to cater for I will be able to handle it, what I’m I going to do? That is the question?
I have a lot that I would want to put down so that we have an insight of what I am having now, on how the now generation is taking it wrong thinking it is doing it right…fear makes one to do something that is wrong thinking that is right, if you make one loose so that you get, are you doing it right or you are doing wrong? That is the question that we have to ask ourselves before taking a step ahead. You cannot selfishly do something and think you are helping without putting yourself in other person shoe to tell whether it is necessary or not. I learnt not force things when are not working but trying to find out the best solution that will benefit myself and people around me to ensure mutual peace and harmony.
Acceptance is a step of healing and can only last if you learn to do it in the right way. Helping one person is same as helping yourself: to be in position to create an environment that both of us who have and those who don’t have it is beneficial and will not create a space for other party to oppress or infiltrate another one because we have an environment that all of us have accepted and are in no position to destroy it.
It is my first time to share my thoughts and it will be good if I have a good feedback that will make me share what I have and I get what I don’t have which is good for the change that we dream of. I have just one word to say “you cannot change your situation by destroying another person space”. Be you and lets find the ground that all of us will find it satisfactory.
